A Gay Dominican

Blessed be whatever forces are at work in the universe. Said friend replied after I messaged him in form of communication I could and I heard back from him. No idea what his mental state is in, but at least he’s around and I can still help him with whatever may be happening. Just. Breathe. 

—GD

FUCK FUCK FUCK. I KNOCKED OUT FROM THE EXHAUSTION OF THE END OF THE SEMESTER AND THE SINGLE WORST TIME AND ONE OF MY FRIENDS WAS LOSING IT AND FUCK IT. NOW HE THINKS NO ONE IS THERE FOR HIM AND THAT I DON’T CARE AND FUCK WHY DID I HAVE TO KNOCK OUT THEN. JUST FUCK. I HOPE HE’S OKAY AND RESPONDS TO THE MESSAGES I’M SENDING HIM LIKE NOW. JUST FUCK. 

Can I just quit everything and spend the day in bed sleeping and ignoring life. I’d like a break from the insanity the end of this semester has brought on. I can barely think or do work or anything.

Why do I feel like everything is going wrong? Like I’m going to fuck everything up and all I want to do curl up in a ball and cry. Why am I feeling worthless when I know I’m not? Just why am I feeling so horrible and afraid and why? Today’s not going to be my day and I fear that it’s only going to get worse. I need to get my mind in a different place and now because I start really going insane.

— GD

I am without a doubt in love with him. The best part being, that he is also in love with me. I could ask for nothing more than for the love between us to continue to grow and become stronger. I don’t think my life has honestly ever been better, even if it is the start of a busy semester. To a bright new future!

— GD

I haven’t really posted on this blog in ages because I haven’t felt the need to do so. Nothing was really happening in my life that required me to vent or to just write to clear my head. But now something has come up that is has lost in my thoughts and I just don’t know what to do. So let’s do good news and then bad news. 

Good news, I’m sort of falling for someone? I’m not really sure what to say. I just think that I’m falling for him and I smile whenever we talk. I spend all day texting him and just anything we talk about makes my day better and yeah. I’m falling for someone and I think he may be falling for me too. 

Bad news, he lives nowhere near me. As in, not even in the same state. Or one nearby. As in, I’m about as far south as you get in the US and he’s by the great lakes. Yeah. That far. And while I can respect long distance relationships, and I’m proud to know of several couples who have one, how do they manage and how they do deal with it? Because I’m sitting here wondering if it’s worth it, but then I think of his smile and think it is. 

And I’m falling for a fact. Snap. I need to think on this more. When it’s not one in the morning. -sigh-

— GD

Anonymous asked: ? Are tu really in DR

Sadly, I am not Anon. I am of DOminican descent though. Is there anything else you would like to ask? 

— GD

Anonymous asked: is it okay 2 be gay?

Of course it is Anon. Being gay is a just a part of who are, just one more thing that makes you who YOU are! Anyone who says that being gay is evil or not ok, is not worth your time and should be ignored. If you have any more questions, I’ll be happy to answer them.

— GD

Today’s gonna be one of those days isn’t it? I can already feel the sadness and depression creeping in. I really need to get out of this house before I lose it. I hate when I get in these moods. It makes me feel like I’m doing nothing with my life and that I’m worthless. I hate it. You can ignore me. I’m just being bleh. xP

—GD

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS SHIT HAVE TO HAPPEN!!!! GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!!!! ARGH I CAN’T EVEN TYPE OR THINK AND FUCK YOU MOM AND FUCK YOUR STUPID ASS AFFAIR AND FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!